An Open Letter

So I posted this letter to my personal facebook page about a month ago but due to a reoccurrence I’m posting it here as well hoping to just get everything off my chest.

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To the person who commented anonymously on myself and my boyfriend’s snapchat,

You succeeded. When you said that I was fat and ugly and that my boyfriend could do way better, I believed it. So as I said…

You win.

Mission successful.

10 Points for Slytherin… (or whatever your preferred catchphrase)

I’ve tried not to let it bother me but something you may not know is that most days I’m not happy with my body. It’s true, I used to be skinnier and more fit than I am now and on my bad days I beat myself up about it way more than I should because life is rough and I’m my own worst critic.
So congratulations, the anonymous friend of me and my boyfriend. You’ve successfully ruined my last few days even though I’ve tried so hard to ignore it.
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me, right?

Wrong.

But despite all this, I will say a few things.

1. I’m sorry you felt the need to take out whatever is bothering and eating at you on me and you had to hide behind an anonymous username (or no name at all) to say what you really think. Honestly, if you have a problem say it to my face. I’m not angry with you…I’m just trying to make sense of it all

And 2. I honestly and sincerely hope that even though what you said to me hurt that no one dares utter those words to you. Those words that can tear apart your entire day and emotionally hurt. Those words that make you feel worthless and undeserving of the one person in SO long that has actually shown you they cared and loved you so much.
I really hope those words are never uttered to you and I say that with 100% sincerity.

And last but not least:
3.Despite everything your words have made me question and how much it hurt, I forgive you.

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Mrs. Potato Head

Oh, Mrs. Potato Head, tell me, is it true that pain is beauty?

 

Melanie Martinez album titled Cry Baby is one of the best albums I’ve listened to. Not only for her unique sound and lyrics but the message in a lot of her songs. One of those impactful songs is called Mrs. Potato Head, which I quoted above. The approach this song takes is eye opening in the way that she shows what society defines as beauty or that if you don’t have anything going for you, you can just pay thousands of dollars to fix whatever you hate about yourself.

We see this daily in the celebrities so many people idolize. It’s a common thing in our society and I think it says so much about how messed up and confused our society is and it’s actually sad. The media is telling us we have to look or act a certain way in everything we do, say, like, wear, and what we look like and it’s heaIt’sreaking. It’s heartbreaking because we are all made to be ourselves and not one of us is the same in appearance, personality, likes, talents or whatever!

We were not all created to fit in and be the same but to be ourselves and stand out!

Because of society and its ideas of what beauty should be, I know some amazing women who don’t believe that they are beautiful. Even I don’t always believe I’m beautiful even though I know that everyone is unique and different and that in itself is beautiful. There are days where I look in the mirror and wish my tummy was smaller or my thighs weren’t as ‘jiggly.’

I know a girl who I feel hasn’t been told enough times that she is beautiful…and because of it, she covers her face in layers of makeup and always changes her hair (whether cut or style) Even though she is stunning with or without makeup, dressed up or in sweats and a t-shirt, she doesn’t believe it because society gives this image of beauty that she doesn’t ‘fit’ into and through her 19 years of life not many people have told her she is beautiful just the way she is.

So I just want to encourage you and say: Don’t define yourself by society’s definition of beauty. Embrace you and your body and be beautifully and unapologetically you!

 

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A to Z Challenge || Letter S: Soundtrack

Hello Readers!

SSo, I find it rather strange that this challenge is almost done…meaning April is on its way, making room for May to make a grand entrance! ( Which reminds me, Some fun stuff will be happening in May. Would you want to see a couple posts more about me and my life and stuff like that? If so, comment and let me know!)

So, today’s letter is S…and my chose word today is Soundtracks!

So, I LOVE using music when writing (Soundtracks or Lyrics. Whichever works for me) so I thought I would share some of my Spotify playlists I use for writing AND also this epic website a friend of mine created solely for writing/writing soundtracks.

Spotify Playlists!

So, I recently discovered spotify and I LOVE IT! (Look as me even using a website that matches with the letter theme for the post) I have a bunch of playlists made and a bunch I have discovered…So now I will share the links for said playlists with you all. To get to the soundtracks/playlists then just click the title of each one.

Playlist for MAHWS ~ Songs with lyrics that apply to characters and scenes 🙂

Writing Instrumentals/Soundtracks

Cutsie ❤ Playlist ~Cute love songs and such

 

SoundFuel – Music You Can’t Write Without

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SoundFuel was created by Leah Kathryn, an 18-year-old composer, author, and all around music-fanatic. 
Leah has possessed an intense love for orchestral film scores nearly all her life. As a classical pianist and composer, she appreciates the artistic quality of a good soundtrack, and has been known to like a film for strictly its music and nothing else.
She writes historical fiction primarily as well as fantasy, and has an incredibly vivid imagination. She believes the music can drive inspiration to an entire different level, maximizing the potential for creative output and productivity. With this in mind, SoundFuel was born.

SoundFuel is a constantly growing, constantly adapting collection of the best orchestral soundtrack music in the world. New tracks are added nearly every week, so there’s always something different to listen to!

If you are looking for the PERFECT Soundtrack to fit a certain theme/feel for a scene you are writing then this is the website to check out! Here is a list of the playlists so you know what to find! Click HERE to get to the playlists!

The Classics
Electro/Dubstep
Atmospheric Vocals (Soft Writing Music)
Civilized Melee
Hope/Musing/Reflection Writing Music
Negative Drive
Motivational Drive
Relaxed/Neutral Writing Music
1700s-1800s Era
Sorrow/Pensive Writing Music
Ethnic Emotional
High Energy Chase
Villainous
Oceanic and High Seas
Flight Inspired
Ethnic Action
Romance and Love
Medieval Fantasy
Hope/Inspiration/Uplifting/Happy Ending
Dystopian Era
Moment of Truth Writing Music
Epic Voyage/Journey
Suspense and Intrigue
Battle Scores
A Spring Dance Frolic
Asian Music
Celtic Music
Western Themed Writing Music
Steampunk
Southern Gothic